You are

I am ENVY

with they who can laugh 

with you!

I was lying on my bed this morning after reading some novels, and realized if my feeling is so........, messy. 

Honestly, gue ngga tau harus nulis apa disini. cuma sekarang gue tau kalau lo sekarang udah jauh banget. hmm.. you're so far dalam arti kita emang nggak ditakdirkan buat bareng, we've our own way. Yang emang jalannya ngga bisa disatuin. I am not going to lie, but yes, everything is not gonna be okay. Apa yang salah? banyak. Siapa yang salah? banyak juga.

To be perfectly honest, it's hard for me. But, in the end i must admit it if our story finally end. yes, it's END. Gue takut if we're always act like this it'll getting hard for me to let you go. Gue gak galau kok ini. Sumpah. (5 menit lagi paling nangis dipojokan) haha gak deng.

Because I know if you'll leave me someday, because I know if the time is come we will not be the same person like who we are now. Sad Ending. hmm, maybe. But i am happy to know you, I am happy to be friend with you, I am happy to see you're happy, and well. Maybe, the universe is not on my side now. Universe emang lagi ngga adil (kita marahan ya sekarang oke, well) no..no Maybe universe have the another plan that will surprise me, Maybe universe will give another time to make me cheers again. *I belive you haha

hmm, well

capek ngga sih if we're act like i'm okay, like everything is fine. when the fact that you got everything is seems so wrong, and you don't know what you must do in the future.

Yang selalu berbahagia,

Nida Riandita